6.19.2002 Nosaj is back with Halcyon for the Feel the Love Show!!! A weekly streaming audio w/ webcam extravaganza (the 1-800 call in number will be posted in the lounge) AUDIO LINK 4:15 Pre-show radio 5:15 FTL Show 6:00 HugNation virtual group hug Never seen the show? watch this Flash promo.

6.18.2002 Globalgasm.com is getting a bunch of traffic from this cool little blog: wtfpeople They also linked to the fun NameThatPorno.com

Ever climax so violently while having ceybersex that you shoot out of your chair, fall backwards, and hit a wall? Um, well, heh. (thread contains pics)

I find myself craving zucchini. Not to eat. Not to cook with. Not even for some depraved purpose best left to fetish web sites. No, I want a zucchini *plant.* (plants, plural, actually…I think they need 2 or more to bear fruit.) I went to buy some zucchini plants a few weeks back and came home with cucumbers. Just as I found a 6 pack of the little squash I was looking for, I heard an elderly lady asking an orange-bibbed Depot employee if there were no more zucchini. I gave her the last ones in my hand. Now, I like the taste of cucumbers better. And their texture makes them much better suited for any fetish needs. But the zucchini plant is tough to beat in the garden. Huge yellow-orange flowers. Strong stems and stalks. Massive, deep-green leaves. Heavy, phallic fruit. There is something so lush and fertile about a zucchini plant. So, do I see what magic will grow from my baby cucumber plants? Or shall I rush to Home Depot for some squash seedlings? Perhaps I will simply prepare another area of soil and do both. The truth is, besides watering, the universe does most the work.

6.17.2002 Disenchanted pointed out a bumper sticker she saw: “It’s better to be despised for exactly who you are, than to be loved for who you aren’t.” Amen. My parents always said, "keep your options open." I've only recently realized that its okay to limit your options on the path to being TRUE to yourself. So I'm not gonna be a politician. Fine. I'd rather be ME and live with those consequences/blessings.

6.16.2002 Happy Father's Day. THANK YOU to all the father's. Your job is the most important of all. (tied with mothers.) I wrote this for my grandpa this morning

6.15.2002 A mid-month Globalgasm!? Well, not officially. But a British film crew is coming to TheRealHouse on Sunday to film. We're going to go through the 'gasm intro gathering and talk as if it were July 1. SO, if you want to be a part of a mid-month gasm, come by the Globalgasm Video Lounge Sunday evening. (They arrive at 5pm, so we will probably be sitting down at 6 or so?) It may not be the first of the month, but lets focus our sex energy anyway!

6.14.2002 heh. This was my quote of the day: "Love is an attempt to change a piece of a dream-world into reality" -Henry David Thoreau.

I am in a VERY good place with the events of yesterday. If you're not on my emaillist (for shame!) I reprinted my reflections in my LiveJournal. You can also hear Wednesday's Feel The Love radio show where "Jenna" calls in twice. At one point I begged forgiveness for doubting her. I'm not really humilated. Nor ashamed. I *am* too trusting and I love freely...those aren't secrets.

6.13.2002 Some mornings are better than others. This morning I woke to cancelled NY plans. (read comments to this LiveJournal post.) And then learned that my grandmother died last night. May angels cradle you as your soul transitions. I love you always.

6.11.2002 I trust too much. And the fact that I need to be more distrustful breaks my heart.

I am really impressed with the functionality of LiveJournal. I find myself friend surfing with such ease. I know there are limits to the design you can do, but that is part of the charm. I can get to the meat of a person very quickly. And if I make them a friend, I can read all updates of all my friends on one page. Plus I get emailed when there are comments in my journal OR replies to comments I've left in others' journals. Color me impressed. I may even look into converting this cockybastard blog.

My friends Jeffrey and Lorena got married this weekend. They had a party, then suprised the guests with, "We're getting married....TONIGHT!" Last week I met with both of them for a sort of spiritual path counseling. It was wonderful. They helped me tremendously. As Jeffrey was leaving, he loaned me a books-on-tape set: The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. I’m just starting, but its pretty amazing. Tolle says there is only NOW. And all pain comes from past and future thoughts. Anxiety & fear = future thoughts Regret & Loss = past But those things don’t really exist! There is only NOW. Even the future only occurs in the NOW. (He says it better.) But it is pretty revolutionary, and at the same time so obvious. Bottom line: Love more. Fear less. Congrats to Jeffrey and Lorena. May your light continue to brighten us all!

6.10.2002 "Genius begins great works; labor alone finishes them" -Joseph Joubert.

If you are a TRH or CitizenSex.com member, you MUST check out this video of my roomate Finding a lizard in her bed. She is naked and reading peacefully...then FREAKS ( 5 min. 14 Meg)

6.9.2002 My new york trip is going to wait a few days. Timing will be better mid week. This is significant because I'm *extremely* excited to meet Jenna. So this setback is like hearing Xmas is gonna be on the 28th. It will still be incredible and filled with bows and joy. But I did have to pout for a moment. Now I'm back to being excited again about my mid-week adventure. I'll try to be productive with my time. Or perhaps I'll just sit longingly here with this warm ache.

Today we had a Burning Man meeting. Then Dlove, DigitalPunk and BeachGirl stayed over and we watched Waking Life (again.)

6.8.2002 Wow. I just saw Waking Life. Amazing. Richard Linklater may have just made it on my "5 people I want to have lunch with" list. So good. Art. I was educated, enlightened and INSPIRED. I totally want to take citizensex.com in a new direction. I can't praise this film enough. Wow. I think I'm gonna be awake for a while.

6.7.2002 Did I mention I'm going to New York next week? Well, I have become quite smitten with a sexy friend on LiveJournal. After much email and chat, she invited me for a visit. So I'm packing my bondage gear, leather chaps, and furry pants and am SUPER excited about a NewYork adventure. We even have a photo shoot planned in DC on friday. (Hopefully the welts won't show up too terribly in the pics.)

I made a little face-lift for selfproclaimedgenius.com. Have you visited lately?

We had a good House meeting tonight. We are gonna try to pick up the pace. Live louder. Pursue "being ourselves" more. I realized that making a successful website should not be the goal. Living an outstanding life (publically) should be.

6.6.2002 Des left town for 24 hours. Picking her up from the airport seemed a good enough reason to dress up in Vinyl (and take some pics)

6.5.2002 San Diego Stories is live! Now what story do I want to tell about the 619?

Radio Show at 5 (PST) today. Topics: citizensex.com, genital warts, masturbation

Two inspiring things in my inbox this morning: "To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end of life -Robert Louis Stevenson. and "i saw you and the housemates in those gasm pics and thought, "Wow! instead of wishing the world was more like that, John has made the world of his choosing." good job!" -My friend, Air

I figured out to make my Firewire hard drive work (hint: daisy-chain, baby!)

6.4.2002 I never appreciated the artistry of coloring until my buddy, Air, showed me what he did to this sketch. Wow.

crazy day. Had the water turned off in TheRealHouse today due to a bill paying error. Luckily, thanks to Des' quick moving, we got it turned on before our stink alarmed the neighbors. Later tested out the TRH full-stream cam. Go-Go dancing works so much better whben the music and movements are in sync. God forbid someone thinks I lack rhythm. And my cactus started to bloom as dusk approached. Since I live in a House with a camera or two, I captured its blooming:

6.2.2002 topless Yoga. (Thanks, Daze)

He writes good. So buy Justin's book

Since It may be a while before I shave my head, why not shave hoopty for charity?

Anyone a whiz with Japanese?

What a glorious 'gasm! Thank you to everyone who helped heal the planet last night. I think the sun is noticably brighter today.

6.1.2002 If you haven’t checked www.globalgasm.com in a while, there are some goodies to check out: PHOTOS showing how TheRealHouse.com celebrates Globalgasm. A video trailer for an upcoming Globalgasm video project. And Ariel Meadow’s article in Scarlet Letters about her Globalgasm experience. Its all about spreading love.

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