9.30.2001 Am working on a cool thing with TheRealHouse. I made pages for each room that show both streaming cams plus audio. (In the past, you could only watch 1 angle at a time.) So now you can watch people walk from one camera angle to another...or see them sitting while seeing what they're looking at. Er...and when I say "them" I mean "me."

9.28.2001 This week's RealHouseTV is mostly me talking about 9-11. But there is a new photo gallery up with screen grabs from old RHTV shows.

Went dancing last night with a small crew. First time dancing since returning from Burning Man and since...it. I danced HARD and it felt great. There was a huge U.S. flag over the dancefloor so I was constantly reminded that-- while I may be having fun-- it was simply a temporary diversion from a world in crisis. The club proved to be as hedonistic as I remembered. My new RealHouse Roomates proved to be wilder than I expected. I was the only one that wanted to go home at closing time.

9.27.2001 !?!?!? Apparently Jay Leno mentioned Globalgasm last night. He said something like " There is a guy in San Diego who is starting something called Global Orgasm. He thinks we can radiate good enery if we all Cum together." *audience laughs* Did anybody see this!? Anybody TAPE it or know how I might get a tape?! I would love to go on Leno and give a dose of the Hugulets. (Globalgasm is MONDAY, btw...might be a big one.) p.s. 3 weeks ago MissM and Kelly pulled over and got directions form Leno at a gas station on the way home from Burning Man. A sign?

9.26.2001 Heather posted Burning Man pics and there's one of me that I just love! Man I miss that boa!

The Radio Show was exactly what i needed. I actually listened to the archive and I was actually proud of myself. I like doing the radio show....alot. Model BobbieBillard called in as did VerbalDreamer with details of the first ever CX Pajama Party. Archive is now live.

Radio show today at 5. Pre-show music at 4. Hug Nation @ 6. (Did you know 1000+ people listen live to the "Feel The Love" show?...Luckily, there is still time to get in on the ground floor and impress your cubicle mates!

The Onion simply rules. They took a respectful period away from humor, then came back HUGE with headlines like, "God Angrily Clarifies 'Don't Kill' Rule" and "Bush Sr. Apologizes To Son For Funding Bin Laden In '80s" Oh, man...and don't miss the infographic. I am so impressed. I am laughing out loud and I don't feel guilty.

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9.25.2001 Hungry for good reads? I added a few more links on the left.

Read Barbarella's tale of a magic song from the wreckage. Wow.

It's just one story among thousands: CitizenX co-founder Adam's cousin Ari was killed in the WTC attack. Six days later, Ari's baby was born.

9.24.2001 My Outlook crashes my computer every time I try to check mail. Been that way for a few days. It kinda feels like I'm on vacation.

The new Tale still makes me giggle when I watch it. I apologize for the gratuitous furry crotch shots.

9.23.2001 I've decided to return to doing weekly Tales on Prehensile.com. Of course, "Tales" can be stories, graphics, videos, or whatever creative impulse I have that week. Look for a new one tomorrow.

My parents returned today from a trip to Europe. They were expected days ago. I cried hugging my mom at the airport and it felt so good.

9.21.2001 Watched a Tribute to Heroes. Tears crept up for Tom Hanks, Ali, every time they show an image of someone in New York holding a “Missing” flyer, Neil Young does Imagine. Wow. I hear Fred Durst singing Pink Floyd, and I realize that everyone is watching. Kids, grownups, everyone. I love the focus is on heroism. Responding to disaster. Nothing about the bad guys. And it isn’t a rah-rah USA rally. Or a ‘Yay Bush’ opportunity. It wasn’t even about “victims.” It was about heroes. I love that

I've felt blurry recently. So I sat naked on the beach this afternoon and asked the universe for some focus.

9.20.2001 Most the MP3 files I download from Napster/Audio Galaxy, etc. are songs I already own on CD (or LP). it is actually less effort to download and play than go find the CD, take it out of its case, etc.

"Suddenly pop culture looks like excrement smeared by a mental patient. Of course it always did. But suddenly the shallowness feels shameful. Am I the only one who feels this way? What dream have we been living in?" I feel the same way, Jeffrey.

I thought a 36 hour marathon session of “Pin The Tale on the Bin” would make me feel better. And I guess when I looked at the countless pin holes in the life size paper cut-out, I did feel a little twinge of satisfaction. Turning effigies into doilies always makes me feel a little better. But not for long. The dispair keeps creeping back. My neighbor mentioned success with the Bowling game he invented. He attached little steel wool fake “beards” to each boiling pin and started referring them as “Bins.” He said that Empire Lanes was considering adding beards to lanes 4-7 on non-league nights. But I’m not sure that would help me. I realized that I don’t hate Bin Laden. I mean, I certainly don’t like him, but I don’t want him dead. I don’t see him as “evil.”

Arg. I've done something to my computer. If I try to check email, it freezes and I have to reboot. Is it related to the virus stuff? I have no idea.

I watched Discovery Channel's "Behind The Terror" last night and found it VERY helpful in understanding the context of what is going on. Enlightening? Yes. Comforting? No.

9.19.2001 I posted a short wrds called "babies." Harper and Halcyon at Burning Man

Radio show today at 5. Pre show at 4. HugNation at 6. topic: The world.

We sent out a CitizenX newsletter last night. 10s of thousands of emails. And, unfortunately, the bouncebacks were all funnelled to me. niiiice. One thing form the newsletter: if you make a 468x60 banner (a tribute, memorial, etc.) and send it to me, I'll run it on CitizenX.com (under 10K, please)

9.18.2001

Bad virus news : "...most e-mails containing the W32/Nimda.A-mm worm do not have a visible attachment. When the subject of the email is clicked so that the recipient can read the e-mail, the worm is immediately activated and attempts to run a programming script. Currently, the only way to avoid the virus is to disable scripting and refrain from opening any e-mail that is unexpected, or whose subject line does not relate to an on-going conversation. " (I'm not sure if I'm infected.)

9.17.2001 I made "Light in the Darkness into the latest Prehensile Tale: Please continue posting examples of hope that you see around you amidst the horror.

I posted a two part "wrds" entry pondering economic consequences to the attacks. I am naive in matters such as these, so I would love to hear others' perspectives.

9.16.2001 My family had a dog from the time i was 1 til i was 2. "Bubba" the hyperactive, baby-knocking down little mutt. Cute dog, but my family had to give him away when it became clear that he was a danger to baby Johnny. After I moved out of the house, my parents got a dog. With my folks out of town, I have been walking "Foxy." First time I ever walked a dog. Over the course of the week, i've made huge strides in my comfort and love of animals. I let a dog lick my face for the first time this week. Then, at a friend's house last night, I spent 30 minutes playing with a puppy. First time I've ever smelled puppy breath. First time I've ever let a ball of pure play roll around and chew on my hand. It was unbeleivably delightful.

Driving from LA to San Diego this morning, nearly every freeway overpass has a home-made sign of American solidarity hanging. Heartfelt, spray-painted signs saying, "United we Stand" or "God Bless America." I've never felt this much communal love in the air. I've found myself saying "Hello" to everyone I pass in the street or mall. Never have I felt this closeness with my fellow Americans. I feel like any soul out there would be a shoulder to cry on if I needed it.

9.14.2001 I created a Flash piece to help me deal with the state of the world: Light in the Darkness. There is also an attached "Board of Light" to share good stories that are emerging from the darkness.

An eveneing laughing with my brother while house sitting for my parents was the perfect break from the world. speaking of getting away from the TV, I really like Rob Brezney's pledge. (thanks, Jan)

9.13.2001 I'm not sure what happened to me today...but I am more depressed than I have been since any of this started. I feel hopeless.

This is being forwarded around. I plan on participating: Light a Candle Friday Night at 7:00 p.m. step out your door, stop your car, or step out of your establishment and light a candle. We will show the world that Americans are strong and united together against terrorism.

This week, if you sign up for a month of CXTools, all $5 (minus PayPal fees) will be donated to the Red Cross. (multiple months or year packages will also be 100% donated) If you don't have a need for Spot Boot, Spot Lounge, etc. and would rather donate directly, visit here.

"It's okay to be angry, but it's not okay to hurt." - Mr. Rogers

As I mentioned on the radio show, I have been very impressed with the politicians who have responded to this crisis by being LEADERS, not politicians. Guliani impressed me particularly. I have wiped clean any ill feelings I had about President Bush. He is my president and is confronting an unfathomable situation. I send him energy and include him in my prayers.

9.12.2001 Radio show was very helpful for me. Thanks to all who tuned in/called in. Archive is now live: LISTEN

The "Feel The Love" call-in show today from 5-6 will discuss the state of the nation. Call in with your thoughts. Nosajg's music show is from 4-5. HugNation is at 6. Today, more than ever, I think we could all use a hug. HugNation is about mental space, not physical space, you can join from anywhere. Just give yourself a squeeze and think about the thousands of other love-filled hearts hugging you back.

Still planning on doing the radio show this afternoon at 5. I think Burning Man stories will have to wait. Call in and lets talk about the world.

9.11.2001 got an email form my parents this morning (traveling abroad.) How weird to feel that they are safer in a foreign country.

I am so disoriented. Is this the most significant event to happen to my world since I was born? What comes next?

If you're not on the cocky-gram mailing list. I posted the letter I wrote in response to the terrorist attacks.

I've been crying sporadically all morning. My heart goes to everyone suffering today. When the world is overshadowed by hate, it is even more important to love...but right now, all I can do is grieve. I walked through my negelected garden a minute ago and heard the birds chirp. Everything just seems darker.

9.10.2001 Man, neck pain puts me in a bad mood. I pity the fool who has to deal with me today.

MissM put up the first of our Burning Man pics

Yesterday afternoon, while wrestling with MissM, I pinched a nerve in my neck. Wow, what a humbling injury. I'm immoble and wince constantly...I'm a joy to be around. Worst of all: I missed Fray Day in LA last night. Second worse: getting my ASS kicked by a tattoo-covered girl.

9.8.2001 During my final night in Black Rock City, I did a face plant and cut up my face a little. (Sometimes my body knows when to say "when" in dramatic ways.) The largest abrasion was below the corner of my right eye. Last night at Street Scene a drunk woman aproached me with disdain and said, "That mole is *so* fake!" Who knew that facial scabs were so fashionable?!

Sorry for the tease. It's a hard transition from Burning Man back to "normal" patterns. Yesterday we finally got the Truck unloaded and returned. Today MissM did $30 worth of Laundry at the laundromat. I'm *almost* finished with a Tale about this year's experience. I'm trying to get photos downloaded right now. I went to San Diego Street Scene last night. It is a massive downtown festival that I normally love. But being so close to Bunring Man made it hard to process. Even though I have a free ticket, Tonight I stayed in and watched a movie. Tomorrow's plan: wipe dust off of things.

9.6.2001 I'm back from Black Rock City. Momentous week. More later.

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