6.30.2000 I’m feeling lonely. Craving intimacy. Craving cuddling on the couch. Craving sweat-drenched flesh slapping. And everything in-between. I think it’s affecting my mood. I just have that feeling of *longing*

Lots of good suggestions being posted in the "Great Personal Websites" forum on the new CockyBastard Discussion Brds. What are your faves? heck, post your own!

A little madness is needed to keep a person sane.

I drove up to LA last night to go to “The Garden of Eden.” I’d heard about it while reading an article in Playboy. (How often do you get to say that and it be true!?) Apparently Hef met his twins there. That’s reason enough for me to check it out. Against my better judgements, I did not wear a robe and creveat. Afterwards I went to a diner and saw Shaq. People applauded when he walked in the resteraunt and chanted "MVP!" Interestingly enough, next week's Tale (already written) is about Shaq. Coincidence? Or Alien intervention?

6.29.2000 The CockyBastard message boards are running. So feel free to speak you mind. Or your loins. If you think I should add some different forum topics, let me know!

As the Fourth approaches, my patriotism is heating up. GoooOOOOOO USA!!! I love America. And I'm proud to be an American. I also know that I'm damn lucky to have been born here. I love that our country allows us to make fun of ourselves without it being treason.

Greg describes his emotions during his son's birth.(6/27 entry) *smile*

A little synopsis of Doug Block's HomePage documentary has a nice Justin Hall clip. (watch "Justin in New York"). I had the pleasure of viewing it in a theatre sitting among many of the people who were in the film. The emotions it stirred in people were amazing. Justin blew my mind.

In college ('92), I would drive to LA to buy techno music from a specialty DJ store on Melrose. It was an exotic taste and required significant effort (and expense) to hear it anywhere outside of the warehouse raves. Now I hear electronica coming out of frat houses and booming from minivans. I can log in to grooveradio.com and get a headful of slamming music without even moving. Life is good.

6.28.2000 Digital Video Tech Help Request: I transfer video off my digital camcorder via firewire using a preogram called DvDeck. It came with the computer and all my video is full-sized and choppy. Is there a better program? (Can I do it with Premiere?)

I just watched SURVIVOR for the first time. I have to tell you: I enjoyed it. I thought it was compelling and I got a kick out of all the invented rituals. Label me as you see fit.

The new FIERCE Gatorade flavors (Lime, Grape, etc) are nothing more than melted Otter Pops....which is probably why they're my faves.

The show went fine. Nobody hits a home run their first time, up...but I think I may have got on base at least. I did the show naked. I hope that becomes a tradition. "The Wednesday night naked hour." I still have an adrenalin high. If you were listening, remember it was my first time and I'll get better. [archive] Thank you, Producer nosajg, for the help. And thanks to everyone who called in! If you have suggestions, critiques, or questions you'd like me to answer on the air, please post them in the new Cockybastard Forums! (thanks Jan for help setting them up)

Yes, i'm nervous about the radio show. I hope some people call in. "IMG2 Radio is proud to present: Half Hour of Luuuv - the soon-to-be-legendary inaugural broadcast of the web's version of Liberace, John Halcyon Styn. "

6.27.2000 Here's a trippy picture of Sam Kinison, Robin Williams, & Ron Jeremy. *That* must have been a party.

I like my friend Matt's new painting. (Yes, he's the one who wrote the dwarf story.)

My grandma just compared the Human Genome Project to The Tower of Babel. Interesting thought.

My mail service has been down since last night. It's like I have no eyes, ears, or tongue.

I do not like Green Vagina and Ham. I do not like it, Sam I am!

6.26.2000 I am touched (yes, in that way) that when Lance spoke of The Gay Pride Parade, he thought of me.

My radio show is onWEDNESDAY night on IMG2. (I said tues. earlier...my brain is NOT to be trusted)

I bought a bike today! Tomorrow morning I have plans to bike to the gym at 7am with Dlove!

I love it when people tell me how they found my site. It makes me *feel* the web's tendrils.

This is the description of my WEDNESDAY night radio show on IMG2: Half Hour of Luuuv with John Halcyon Styn Special to IMG2 Radio Join Halcyon, the flamboyant Webby Award™ winner and internet sex symbol, as he lets you "take a peek inside his mental panties." Warning: May not be suitable for all listeners.

The Tale of the Week is about erections. And it's by Todd Levin. Both are very good things.

6.25.2000 Fellow Lustmonkey, Ollie, relates a funny story .

New wrds on cockybastard...because I'm in a funk. And fo rthe life of me, I can't get the javascript pop-ups to work. *sigh*

Side note: I wish I didn’t have to shave. Side note 2: I learned THIS YEAR that you’re supposed to let the shaving cream sit for a sec to loosen up the beard. What a revelation! I thought the key was steam. But even with scientific breakthroughs like these, I’m still lousy at shaving. I’m not patient enough. I think I need to learn to enjoy it more. Maybe I’ll stop doing it in the shower. Wait… My shower and sink are in different rooms (wacky old house). You loose all that cool”room-full-of-steam” aspect when you have to walk across cold tile floor to get to the mirror.

It's a pity that those who reject porn are the ones who need it most. (Thanks, Gus)

I made a new banner for citizenX: (Yes, that's Jason's 'Silkscreen' font.)

"Hey, you're the guy that fucked all the girls in the house at Real World Tallahassee! I mean, you fucked all of 'em, even that obnoxious girl in the wheel chair. Hey, someone take a picture of me with this guy!" Sometimes Dlove *kills* me.

Dlove called me today and (without having read this page) addressed me, "Hey, Poopypants!" Is the Universe trying to tell me something?! I'm staying close to a bathroom today.

I just did something I haven't done since I was in Pampers. I shat myself. Yup. 3 cups of coffee into my morning, I realized that my passing wind was more than I bargained for. I'm still a little bewildered. Was this a one time thing? Dear god, I hope so. The body is an amazing system. The miracle is that this kinda stuff doesn't happen more.

Had a great night last night hanging out with my cousin, Kaya, and Rob.

6.24.2000 I joined a gym yesterday. To get the best deal, I told him Kaya and I were married. Straight-faced, I said, "We're married. That's why we have the same last name. I *call* him my brother because it's just easier sometimes."

The stargazers I planted from bulbs are blooming. I've been watching them grow for almost 5 months. But what a payoff. (Check out the "original size" of that photo to see how kewl my Olympus digicam is)

6.23.2000 Can I get in on the clicks-for-play program?

I'm trying to make a little Flash Tour for CitizenX.

6.22.2000 Zeldman-designed jazzradio.net launched.

Dlove reminded me of something a friend of ours says, "The grass is always greener where you water it."

The official Search Engine for Cocky Bastards. (thanks JD)

I would love to have a button, like my “blog this” button that would just instantly drop $.25 into someone’s PayPal account. So as I read, I could just drop quarters. Like change at the yogurt shop. I don’t think serving a yogurt at the counter is much of a tip-earning job. But if I get a nice smile and positive energy, heck, yeah... I love having the opportunity to tip. I like doing something that I don’t have to…but I want to.

6.21.2000 I'm playing with the streaming video version of Webcam32 on my Spot. It seems to be working really well. We'll see if my system can handle it. (With streaming video, it's much easier to get caught picking your nose than with a 30 second refreshing cam.)

6.20.2000 I'm trying to finish up all my loose ends so that I can get rid of my AOL account. It was my first ISP and I've had it ever since. Might be time to move on.

Dinah, in a revolutionary gesture, sent me 25 cents through PayPal. What an awesome idea! There are tons of webzines I enjoy more than Maxim or Playboy. Yet I pay to read those. Next on my todo list: A 50 cent voluntary micropayment to a dozen of my favorite sites. BTW, if you sign up for PayPal and use halcyon@cockybastard.com as the referrer, my burningman camp gets $5 towards their fundraiser. Help keep our generator running in the desert!

6.19.2000 I just sent out a quickly written MOMENT OF citiZEN newsletter. I made an "adult" joke about a sticky keyboard. I wonder if that was too much? Fuck it. We'll see if anyone complains. Oh, if you want to get the newsletters, just become a member @CitizenX. (and visit my webcam while you're there!)

Happy Fathers Day! This week's Tale is dedicated to my Pop.

6.18.2000 HTML help request: Is there a way to make all links in this frame default to "target=new"? update: I got the answer.THANKS Daniela!

I went to a party last night @ Club Rubber. Man-o-man...there were some beautiful people there. And since the theme was "Dress in white," there were some beautiful outfits, too. Some might think that white fur coat, fur pants, and fur hat would be too much...but those people would be wrong.

6.17.2000 I just finished a redesign of the Lustmonkey site.Now I just gotta fill in the content. I'm doing an experiment...95% of the site will be edited with blogger

6.16.2000 I just got the coolest gift ever: A Halcyon Bunny! Thanks, Ron & Christine!!!

I finally decided on a time for that radio show on IMG2.com. Wednesdays at 5pm PST. You know what I'd love to use as the show music? "The Free to Be You and Me" soundtrack with a fat techno/trance something beat mixed into it. If I supplied an MP3 of the original, does anybody have the skills to do that? Or can you recommend a program that could?

Polyester leisure suits, when worn sans shirt, have a high chaffing probability.

6.15.2000 I added a lower navigation bar to the Flash version of cockybastard.com. I needed to fill in some gaps.

I redesigned Dlove's Diaryland page. His words deserved it.

The ice cream man just drove by. I heard "Pop Goes the Weasel" 13 times in a period of a few minutes. Driving that truck is a job for a madman...or a deaf person.

I get an email that someone at DBB wants permission to use cockybastard.com in a presentation they're giving in Cannes. I went to their site, but couldn;t figure out what DBB stood for. Maybe it's a secret society like "Daughters of the Debutante Battalion." Or maybe it's just and ad firm. Hey, lookie there...reading deeper in their site, they did the Budwiser "Whassup" ads.

So, I discovered last night that I don't really know how to dance to drum-and-bass. Ya gotta be a freakin' hummingbird to digest that many beats per minute.

My friend (and neighbor) Deron is a talented painter. I have an amazing painting of his on my wall. It's really cool because I get to see his paintings as they progress. He generally leaves his large work-in-progress canvasses on his porch. It's like a little gallery, everytime I climb my stairs. And it makes our whole courtyard reek of creativity.

6.14.2000 I registered styn.net yesterday.

When my brother met me downtown and I was dressed like this, he asked, "How many people have tried to beat you up?". There's also some pictures from my Dad's Roast and the Learning Party.

I just cleaned out my full inbox for my old Yahoo email account. It was a treat. scrolling through all these familiar email addresses from 2 years ago: Friends I'm out of touch with, brief e-mail romances, heated debates, and the beginning of friendships that I treasure today.

6.13.2000 I think if I got into porn, A good pseudoname would be, "HalcyLong"

I can't tell if i should be giddy, or ashamed. I just had Marshmellow AlphaBits for dinner.

Okay, I think I've decided that I want to get a PT Cruiser. They don't come in "Vapor" color...but they named it after Prehensile Tales!!! How can I *not* get one!?

I got new shoes today, and it's TRUE! I *can* run faster.

Are you in San Diego and love to dance? Fellow Lustmonkeys are throwing a Drum & Bass night called "CONTENT" tomorrow night at Blind Melons in PB. (710 Garnet Ave. near Crystal Pier) I'll be there, shaking that ass.

I have about 20 butt photos I could contribute to this site. In college, I had pictures of nearly all my friends naked, in cool natural settings. It was almost a prerequisite for friendship.

Confession: I like the way asparagus makes my pee smell.

6.12.2000 Except for the ones with Ron Jeremy's face on them, I think I'd wear any of these T-shirts.

I know exactly how Lance feels. I love the web, too.

Shorn is a kick-ass new webzine. I'm impressed. (thanks Derek)

I posted two new Wrds entries.

6.11.2000 The new Fray story is beautifull. So damn cool what he does with non scrolling backgrounds. Of course, I posted my story, too.

The new Tale is by Kaya, in honor of the always exciting baseball season.

Partying Thurs & Friday wasn't the best way to prepare for a Sat. party. I passed out early last night.

6.10.2000 I'm heading to the desert for The Learning Party. See ya tomorrow!

The roast for my Dad went great. Kaya and I told a room full of judges jokes about my dad while throwing in bits about drugs & masturbation. We were a hit. My first words were, "I remember one time when Dad was in one of his really deep heroin binges, and he was selling off our Star Wars figures for drug money..." *That* woke 'em up.

Three new wrds entries: Shadrach Preach intense People who frequent My CitizenX chatroom may recognize these topics.

6.9.2000 The Breast Chronicles are taking the *tough* questions to the people. You go girls!

I'm trying a new streaming software over at CitizenX.com. Now you can use a variety of webcam solutions to make sure people can see your pretty mug (both streaming and 30 second refresh cams). If you have a webcam, and don't have a CitizenX spot...well, you're not one of the cool kids.

This afternoon, my brother and I are speaking at a 300 person Roast for my Dad (He recently became a Judge). I *love* the idea of honoring a person by making fun of them. I wonder if he'll be mad after I bring up his brief heroin addiction?

6.8.2000 The once-a-year wicker sale is going on now at Pier 1 Imports!!!! Once a year is far too often. I'm not a wicker fan. I am the anti-wicker.

This is a DOPE Flash ditty from Levis.

My Burning Man camp is doing a fundraiser. Signup for PayPal, and Camp Lustmonkey gets $5. (You'll get a $5 credit, too. Which you could transfer to me if you like, and i'll give it to the LustMonkeys.) The money won't be allocated until you provide a valid credit card number. They WON'T charge it. PayPal is actually a cool service for transferring funds for online auctions and such. Hmmm...maybe I could use it to auction off my used pagers? Yes, the lustmonkey website is a mess right now. I'm working on it, okay?

Every Thursday I go dancing at Hedonsim. Jon Bishop spins slamming trance and hard house. I go whenever possible. My groove thing must be fed.

DateBrian.com may be on to something. If it worked out, I could save a fortune on Nivea hand lotion.

6.6.2000 I was kinda worried about writing a story about boobs. I've been suprised by the number of supportive emails...even from women! I guess it's the ingrained "fear of being a sexist jerk" that I developed by being raised by a feminist. I feel guilty everytime I look at a woman's cleavage. The fear of being sexist is tough to kick. It's taken years, but I'm finally able to spank a woman. Although I've found that the action is better recieved in the bedroom with a partner than in the library with a stranger. Live and learn.

6.5.2000 Don't know much about astrology. But sometimes it seems to know me pretty darn well.

After I finished the Boob Tale, I realized a Duchamp-like twist of accidental art: The visuals make it hard to concentrate on what is being said by the words. Kinda like with women and their boobs, eh? It's distracting, ain't it?

6.4.2000 Karyn mocked up a HalcyonMobile .

The Prehensile Tale of the Week is called, BOOBS

Todd Levin is always funny.

I swam in the ocean yesterday. First time of the year. Body surfed for a bit...then let the sun dry me off. So. nice.

The Beach Burn last night was great. Camp Lustmonkey and The Xara Project have decided to collaborate. I'm so stoked. The union is bionic. All non-freaks best beware.

6.3.2000 Tonight is a San Diego beach burn at Crown Point. It's a chance for some pre-Burning Man insanity. What to wear!!??

I am definitely having fun with RealSlideshow. My Burning Man movie turned out pretty cool, I think: Taste some Playa Dust

So I was playing with RealSlideshow and made this little atrocity of fur coats and funny hats.

6.2.2000 I'm trying to learn how to encode video and stuff. My first attempt: 2.7 megs of STUDliness. (It's my answer to the question, "What do you notice first on a woman?")

It is a momentous day in my life jouney. I resigned from CollegeClub.com today. An incredible experience. Incredible people. When I started there, it had close to 200,000 members. Now, almost 2 years later, CollegeClub is 2.5 million strong. I am proud that I was a part of that. I wish the CollegeClub company and community enormous success. I will always be Halcyon1@collegeclub.com.

If you didn't like Motley Crue after seing the "Behind the Music" special (Can you believe he shot up smack RIGHT AFTER they released him from the hospital!?), maybe their new Anti-Metallica cartoon will win you over.

Zeldman.com turned FIVE years old on Wed. That's 1073 in web years. The web is better because of Jeffrey.

exerpt from Kaya's email: I had signed up for the marathon...but you can imagine my surprise when they said "miles" as in 26.2 MILES. I was mistaken. My bad. When they said "run"...well, that shocked me too. When they said "write your name" I knew this was getting shady and I left. Bunch a freaks....

6.1.2000 Are the Lovians for real?

Yikes, i didn't post yesterday! My bad. I guess it was all that emotion that swirls about the end of May. Well, it's June now. Carry on.

I'm just a guy who writes stories about his penis and loves himself. If I've claimed to be anything else, I apologize.

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